First of all I would like to thank you and tell you how much I appreciate what you’re doing.
I’ve wanted to tell you about my ‘new self’ since I watched Kelli’s story. It’s crazy how much it resembles my own life and feelings. I, too, went through a terrible time in my life when I had an eating disorder and when every minute and every second at school, at home or while with friends, my mind was obsessed with food, or, more precisely, with avoiding it. I imagined how thin I’d look if I rejected all the food others normally eat. I’d starve myself for weeks, and then I’d spend several days stuffing myself. The body just didn’t know when to stop, and I ate and ate and ate, and after a couple of days I’d feel terribly guilty for putting on so much weight and it would start all over again. The one difference was that I had never been working out, and the obsession was all about food.
After a few years I got over this, and I was much more composed about food. I got married and my twin girls were born. But after pregnancy my body had changed. Since I had never been used to working out, I felt really bad about my shape. It was not my weight this time that bothered me, but I really wanted to do something with my tummy and my flabby thighs.
My friends recommended workout videos and so I started to work out on a daily basis, for the first time in my life actually. The first month went pretty well but then I started to get bored by doing the same thing over and over again. I started to reduce the frequency of my workouts and I also had to mute the videos because I felt like being shouted at and I also hated the annoying music in the background. I also didn’t see as much of a change in my body shape as I was hoping for.
And then I found Fitness Blender videos on Youtube. I started with the short videos just to add them to my other workouts but after a while I found all the great workout videos and since then I’m with you guys basically every day.
For the first time in my life I started liking my body and feel much more comfortable in it. It’s great how exercising makes me feel. How I feel my muscles to be working like a well-oiled machine 🙂
I don’t care anymore about the number on the scales. I just want to feel good and be a fit mother for my kids. I ended up as a certified nutrition therapist and I hope to give my girls the best example of how to live healthy so they never have to go through an eating disorder like I did.